My Whole Life Challenge Experience

I’ve been debating whether or not I wanted to write something about my experience with the Whole Life Challenge, and whether or not I wanted to share my “before & after” pictures. However, I came to the conclusion that, as a coach, detailing my experience may help inspire others to make changes to improve their health and well being. Although coaches can be described as “health professionals” and can often be viewed as “having it together,” we have our own issues as well. I may or may not be slightly obsessed with Cheez-It. Just sayin’…

Before I get into the nitty gritty, I would like to say that I understand that some of you may look at me and feel that I don’t have any weight to lose, or may think “What is she thinking? She’s not fat,” or that I can eat whatever I want because I’m already “skinny”. I know that I’m not fat, but I do have some weight to lose and when I gain 5-7 pounds, I definitely feel it and it shows because of my small frame. Also, at my age, I can no longer eat whatever (e.g., junk food) because my metabolism doesn’t work the way it used to like in my teens and 20s.

A couple years ago, my husband and I tried to follow the paleo diet. If you’re not familiar, with the paleo diet, you basically cut out all grains, dairy, sugar, legumes, white potatoes and other “nightshades,” artificial sweeteners, and anything processed. You’re probably thinking, “well, what the heck do you eat then?” Meat, poultry, seafood, veggies, berries, nuts, and healthy fats and oils, such as avocados and coconut oil. There’s plenty left to eat! However, at the time I wasn’t quite ready to make the switch. I was addicted to crap food and towards the end of getting my college degree. Without Diet Coke, Cheez-It and chips, I don’t think I would have made it through those days where I was writing papers into the wee hours of the morning. I think I made it one or two weeks before I was so “hangry” (hungry + angry) that I, nor my husband, could take it any longer. Food is very emotional for a lot of us, and I was not emotionally ready for the change.

This past year has been quite stressful for me as work got super busy with four people in my department retiring and my supervisor going on maternity leave early and then being out for four months. My health deteriorated because I ate whatever was within my reach (i.e., lots of sandwiches and cookies) and working through lunch, which caused me to not sleep very much. I was also coaching in the evenings after work, and getting home around 8:30-9:00pm. I also reinjured my knee, and I just let myself go. My hormones were out of whack and I felt terrible all the time. Once things at work slowed down, I decided that it was finally time to get my shit together.

Enter the Whole Life Challenge (WLC). The WLC is an eight-week lifestyle challenge where you focus on clean eating, exercising and stretching regularly, taking a daily supplement, drinking 1/3 of your body weight in ounces of water daily, and participating in weekly lifestyle challenges (e.g., getting at least 7 hours of sleep per night or not using technology during meals). I have a few friends that have done the challenge in the past and have heard and seen the benefits from it. I felt I was mentally in a better place to take on the challenge, so I committed to it. I was a bit nervous because eight weeks seemed like a long time. Was I really ready for it?

There are three nutrition levels to choose from: Performance (strict paleo), Lifestyle (allowed to have some grains, starches, and corn), and Beginner (can pretty much eat anything but bread and sugar). I chose the Lifestyle level because I wanted to work on maintaining a reasonable diet and not drastically changing it, as I felt that I would be setting myself up for failure and disappointment had I gone the Performance route. I’m glad I chose this level because I was able to do just that – I found a way to maintain a reasonable diet.

The first week was difficult because my body went through withdrawals. I did get hangry, but not like before. But after that week, I started feeling and seeing the benefits and it felt so good. I found that in the first 2.5 weeks, I lost 1.5 inches around my waist, and my workouts felt easier! I also found that I wasn’t craving the bad food and not eating my feelings. It was pretty exciting.

I was on a roll and doing so well until October 10. It was that day that I found out that a friend had passed away earlier that morning. He was a very close friend of my brother’s, and he was also like a brother to me. I was shocked and upset. My husband asked me what he could do for me and I told him that I wanted Cheez-It and a glass of wine. He was so sweet and went to the store to buy both. Although I was eating and drinking my feelings, it felt different. I’m not sure how to describe it. I guess it wasn’t so much the addiction driving me to eat and drink; it was more of a conscious decision to do so. I felt in control of that decision. The next week was difficult as I was emotionally spent and I didn’t have the energy to focus on the challenge very much. I ate crappy food and drank a lot of wine and cider. Additionally, the following weekend was a close friend’s wedding and the weekend after that my birthday! So from October 10-26, I ate crappy and drank a lot of alcohol. Thankfully, I was able to get back on track for the final few weeks of the challenge. It was difficult, but I overcame the minor setback.

My goal for the challenge was to learn how to manage my diet better and to learn how to take better care of my body through nutrition. I refuse to be a slave to medication! Through this challenge, I now understand how my body reacts to certain foods, such as dairy, grains, and starches, which has led me to not crave them as much as before. Score! And since I don’t eat much of those types of food anymore, when I do eat them, they don’t taste as good as I remember them to be.

To give a bit of history, the verbal abuse and harassment that I received from my gymnastics coach from the ages of 10-16 still affect me to this day, which is why I have had such a bad relationship with food. His negative words also still affect my self-esteem. He often called me and my teammates “fat whores” and other names that I will not repeat. Mind you, we were still in elementary school/pre-teens when he said these nasty things. That shit does not go away. Because of this, I have not worn my bathing suit in public in the past two years. One, because I have a crazy tan line due to our gym being outside, and two, because of my self-esteem issues. However, after this challenge, I am feeling a little better about myself, which is why I now feel somewhat comfortable showing my before and after pictures (enjoy my tan line!)…

 IMG_4558 IMG_4559 IMG_4560

My results from the challenge are as follows:

Weight:
Pre-challenge: 131.4lbs
Post-challenge: 126.8lbs

Body fat %:
Pre-challenge: 20.1%
Post-challenge: 18.4%

Challenge workout:
11min time cap:
800m run
75 air squats
50 sit-ups
25 push-ups
For the remainder of the time, do as many burpees as possible.
Your score is the total number of squats, sit-ups, push-ups, and burpees.

Score:
Pre-challenge: 173 (23 burpees)
Post-challenge: 183 (33 burpees)
I was able to bust out 10 more burpees!

I am pleased with my results, as my goal was to get around 126lbs, 18% body fat, and get a higher score during the workout. Woot!

Now, you’re probably wondering what my meals consisted of. Well, here ya go!

Breakfast: usually 3 eggs (scrambled-sometimes with spinach, or hard boiled) and 3-4 pieces of bacon or sausage, and coffee with stevia.

Lunch: spinach & kale mix salad with chicken and avocado or leftovers from dinner, and sometimes a vegan soup I bought from the café on campus.

Dinner: pork or beef cooked in the slow cooker with sweet potatoes and onions, tacos made with leftover pork, or steak with broccoli and/or sweet potatoes.

Snacks: Cashew cookie Larabar, apples, bananas, brown rice cakes with cashew butter, carrots, strawberries, cantaloupe

I’m glad the challenge is over because having to log points and do the weekly lifestyle challenges were a bit cumbersome, but I am happy that I am learning better nutrition and eating habits. I’m looking forward to being released into the wild and doing it on my own.

Here’s to cleaner eating and better health!

What does Ninja eat?

IMG_2233
(Black Widow and I at the WODseries partner competition on December 8, 2013)

A few friends have asked me over the past few weeks what I eat, as well as for the recipe for the meatloaf I made. Never in my life did I ever think that I would be sharing a recipe! I am not one to cook, but have been dabbling and trying to do it more often. But before I continue, I would like to share some exciting news…

Today is my 1-year anniversary of being soda-free from my favorite sodas!!! WOOT! I say “from my favorite sodas” because I haven’t been completely soda-free. The only soda I allowed myself to have was ginger ale when I wasn’t feeling well, and I’ve had a total of 4 over the past year. Pretty good considering I had a mad addiction to the corn syrup-filled goodness that is soda. I still crave my beloved Diet Coke (especially with Captain Morgan!), but I try to distract myself when I get those cravings. I still glare at Tall Guy, though, when he drinks a giant Coke or gets a Coke Slurpee. RUDE!

Now back to food. Last week I had a competition and I wanted to make sure that I was feeling well for it. My diet has been a bit dirty over the past few months and I wanted to clean it up and do a bit of detoxing. So I decided that I would cut out sugar (natural sugars were fine), dairy, and bread. It was tough, but I did it for a full week… and I lost 6 lbs! I wasn’t trying to lose weight; I just wanted to clean out my insides. I felt great and the bloating went away. Below is a list of what I ate during the week, and pretty much what I generally eat, except when I decide to throw in some sandwiches and cheese and crackers into the mix (bad Ninja!):

Breakfast: 3 hard boiled eggs or scrambled eggs, 2-3 pieces of bacon, avocado

Lunch: spinach salad with hard boiled eggs, apples, chicken, avocado, drizzled with oil & vinegar; lentil soup if I’m needing a little something else; leftover chicken or steak with rice and/or broccoli and/or green beans

Dinner: Chicken or steak with rice and/or broccoli and/or green beans, and corn if I’m feeling a little frisky

Snack: bananas and/or almonds (but I wish I was eating Cheez Its!)

Nothing too exciting or too fancy. Ain’t nobody got time for that with our schedules, so we make do with the time that we have.

A couple of recipes I’d like to share are as follows…

Meatloaf (gluten-free, Paleo-friendly)

I combined a couple of recipes that I found online and tailored them to my liking. Both recipes said to bake at 350° and cook for 40 min, but I would probably cook it a little higher for a tad longer.

Ingredients:
1.5 lbs of ground beef
1/2 cup chopped celery
1/4 cup chopped onions
1 tsp chopped garlic
1 large egg
Sprinkle salt and pepper to your liking

Mix in a bowl, then add the ground beef and mash with your (clean!) hands. Yum. Mold into a loaf pan. I sprayed the loaf pan with coconut oil instead of the other baking sprays. Instead of using ketchup (even though I wanted to) I spread tomato paste on the top and then layered bacon across. However, I think the next time I will chop up the bacon and throw it into the mix. It didn’t get as crispy as I hoped, so we had to throw the meatloaf in the broiler for a couple of minutes.

Lentil Dip Delight (vegetarian-friendly)

I had this “dip” at a BBQ a few months ago and it was so delightful that I had to ask for the recipe, and come to find out, it’s totes easy to make! It involves 3 ingredients all pre-made from Trader Joe’s. When I have time, I plan on trying to make it from scratch because of the added sugar in the bruschetta, but for now the pre-made stuff will suffice (because it’s BOMB!).

Ingredients:

1 package of pre-cooked lentils (found near the small packages of veggies in the refrigerated section)
1 tub of Bruschetta (found near the salsas in the refrigerated section)
1 tub of Feta cheese (found near the other cheeses, duh)

Throw in a bowl, mix it up, and voila! Lentil dip delight! This can be eaten with pita crackers or chips, but I also highly recommend putting it on top of chicken breast. Holy moly it is fantastic!

Well fancy that! I just Googled the Trader Joe’s bruschetta to find a picture to add and I found a picture with ALL of the ingredients! Looks like another short, Asian lady loves this stuff too!

Lentil-Bruschetta-023

(Pic via The Fresh Find)

That’s all that I have for now. After the competition, I indulged with a giant burrito with lots of cheese and sour cream, as well as a Hawaiian pizza with garlic parmesan bites from Dominos (not at the same time – oh my, that would be painful!). To answer your question, yes, I feel awful, but it was worth it. Now back to cleaner eating… until Christmas dinner!

Happy holidays friends!

A Promise to My Mind and Body – My Whole Life Challenge

no-soda

Today marks my 2 month anniversary of being soda free. WOOT! This is a big deal as I had quite the addiction to soda; I just loved it so much. I don’t think I would have been able to survive my last two years of college without soda. Well, college is finally over and I no longer need soda in my life. I never thought I would be able to do away with this delicious beverage, but I have made a promise to myself that I would treat my body and mind better.

A few days ago, the Women of CrossFit = Strong page on Facebook posted a before and after picture of one of its followers, Claire. She has a blog called The Ascent Blog where she talks about CrossFit, food, and doing fun things in the great outdoors. The picture that inspired me can be viewed in her post Zone Progress Photos. Her before picture really hit home as this was the first time that I was actually able to relate to a “before” picture – my body looks like hers! Most of the time when I see weight loss pictures, the before picture is usually of a very heavy, overweight person. Now, before I continue, I would like to say that I am amazed at the progress that these people make. The fact that some people lose 50+ pounds is a huge and fantastic accomplishment. That takes some serious dedication and determination. However, I have always been a small person, so it is difficult for me to relate to being that size. So, when I saw Claire’s picture it really got to me. It sparked a light of determination inside of me that I have missed so much.

She commented that after one year she had been “feeling stronger and healthier, but [I too] wasn’t really SEEING any dramatic physical results.” That’s how I’ve been feeling and I’ve been doing CrossFit for 3 years! I knew exactly why I wasn’t seeing the results I wanted, but wasn’t quite mentally ready to make a commitment to my eating habits. Well, I decided in January that I would become a food-prepper and it has definitely changed how I feel and eat. It has also changed my attitude towards food. It has definitely made life easier! Although I was prepping my food every week and bringing my breakfast and lunch to work everyday, I would still sneak in a cookie (or two!), some fries or chips. I was also having a bagel every Wednesday for my office’s Bagel Day.

Well, NO MAS. At least for a month. I am going to step up my commitment and (try to) eliminate grains, dairy, sugar, legumes, and certain starches for one month. There are exceptions and I will write more about that in another post. No more sneaking in a bag of Cheetos or canister of Pringles (uggggghhhhhhh!!!) or those damn cookies that taunt me at every work event. I have to do this for myself. I have to do this for my body, for my health. I haven’t been the nicest to my body and it deserves better than what I’ve been giving it.

Yodaquote(from http://challengefuture.org/news/526)

In addition to improving my eating habits, I am working on improving the chatter that goes on in my head and how I view myself. I picked up a lot of crappy habits last year – negative, poopy, snarky types of attitudes and it grossed me out. It greatly upset me as I lost the positive little ninja that I was. I have been really working on finding my positive side again. A good friend of mine posted such a wonderful comment on my page the other day that showed me that I was finding my path to positivity again. She wrote: “Had a random thought about you today that made me smile: “I think if Nomers ever exploded with joy that there would be confetti, glitter and fireworks of the most amazing awesomeness ever.” Yup, you’re that girl and I love you for that! Miss you!” That comment meant A LOT to me and am so grateful to have such wonderful people in my life.

Now that I’ve been slowly getting back into the swing of things at the gym and adding more weight to the barbell, I am finding it difficult getting my mind and body at the same level it was before my injury, which has led to frustration and anger. Don’t get me wrong, I am STOKED to be lifting again and being able to hang from the bar to do pull-ups, but it is still frustrating. Prior to my injury I was feeling pretty strong and then in an instant that was all gone. So, when I start feeling frustrated during a WOD, I tell myself to snap out of it and try to think about something positive – something, anything to keep me going. I’ll say things like, “Think about where you were two months ago” or “Think about all of those people who have lost loved ones” or “Be grateful for what you have and get to work!” I am making progress and I need to remind myself of that.

I am also learning to stop comparing myself to my friends and other women at the gym. Most of them are 7-10 years younger than me and have led completely different lives and have completely different genetics. I will never look like them and need to really understand that. Easier said than done, but I’m working on it.

So, here we go. I’m on a mother freaking adventure! I can do this. I will do this. Two personal mottos are going to be a major focus of my adventure: “Lead by example” and “Commitment and focus”. I have to do this for myself and I have to do this for everyone in my life. Also, a big THANK YOU to Claire for giving me the big kick in the butt that I’ve been needing. Woot!

AngerCloudstheMind

Commitment and Focus

I feel a change happening within myself, a transition, if you will. I have made a promise to myself to make (more of) a commitment to work towards what I want and would like to achieve, intensifying my focus on getting there, and staying true to myself no matter what anyone else has to say about it. But, dang is it hard. People are loud! My newfound mantra of “commitment and focus” has definitely been working over the past few weeks, especially with CrossFit. My main focus and commitment is my health, which I have been struggling with for quite some time now. I finally have a grasp on the exercise aspect of my health and now I feel like I am able to focus on the diet and mental aspect.

I’ve been toying with the paleo diet over the past year and it has been difficult. I do love my carbs, but my recent re-commitment to myself has allowed me to cut back. What has also been helping is that I am allowing myself to have a little bit of carbs with each meal, but not a lot. I also have set days in which I allow myself to eat and drink certain things, such as Fridays are soda day and Sundays are bagel days. If I happen to eat a bad (i.e., fried or greasy) meal in a day, I make sure that my other two meals are healthier. There are days where it is difficult (e.g., school days), but I try not to get too upset over it, which leads me to the mental aspect of my health.

I have been obsessed with food, my body, and my weight for as long as I can remember. I attribute this obsession to my gymnastics career. I also attribute my horrible self-esteem and self-conscious issues to my gymnastics coach and the perfection aspect of the sport. To get a glimpse of the type of horrible man my coach was (read: pedophile), you can find out here (in the section at the bottom of the article, Less Oversight in Private Sports. Note: Although I was interviewed for this article I am not the girl who was quoted.). I was with this coach from the ages of 10 to 16. During my time as a gymnast under his watch, he would call my teammates and I “fat whores” and other names that cannot and do not want to mention (Having to recall everything he ever called us for a police report was one of the most awful things I have ever experienced). Who calls a 10 year old a fat whore? Seriously. I’m currently taking a social psychology class and this week I read about persuasion and attitudes and this is what the researchers had to say: “The teens and early twenties are important formative years. Attitudes are changeable then, and the attitudes formed tend to stabilize through middle adulthood… For many people, these years are a critical period for the formation of attitudes and values” (Myers 2010:251). I am a perfect example of this statement. My experiences with my coach have carried over into adulthood, which I struggle with on a daily basis. A friend posted the picture below on Facebook today and it’s just so fitting with what goes on in my head every day.

I have had eating disorders, both starving myself and gorging myself until I felt sick. I have never made myself throw up because I hate throwing up so much. I wouldn’t even put that on my worst enemy, I hate it so much. But, I digress. Everything my coach ever said to me still floats around in my head quite often. It’s getting better as I get older, but he is definitely still there. Most days I’m able to manage the hate, but other days it just kills me. I am also trying to stop being so obsessive about food and my body and trying to focus on being more conscious of my decisions. This may seem easy for some or ridiculous to others, but unfortunately, this is what I’m dealing with. I’m also trying to rid myself of the emotional attachment that I have with and towards food. For example, when I’m happy or something good happens we celebrate with food. If I am sad, I get ice cream to make me feel better. When I’m stressed, I grab a soda and a bag of chips. (Mmm… soda. I just realized it’s Friday and I haven’t had a soda today. Go me!) Because I have been working on refocusing my thoughts about food, I am slowly eating better every day and it has affected me physically. You’re now probably thinking, “Well, duh. If you eat better, you’ll feel better.” And to you I say, “Duh. I know. Easier said than done, butthead.” So, if you’ve ever wondered why I may appear crazy, depressed, angry, and/or so hard on myself, now you know. I’m a work in progress.

It’s been an interesting and exciting past few weeks at CrossFit, and it is because of my refocusing. I have been able to do most of the workouts (WODs) as prescribed (RXd) and even beat some of the better, stronger ladies on a few WODs. Woot! There have been some WODs where I was one of the first people done, and some I was the last to finish. What was so rewarding about the WODs where I was the last to finish was that I completed the WOD RXd, meaning I did not modify any of the movements, skills, or weight at all. I didn’t care about finishing the fastest, as I wanted to do the skills with as best of form as I could and not modify it. That was such an accomplishment since it has taken forever for my Achilles to heal. (Yes, it is my fault it has taken so long. I know. It’s just another thing I’ve added to my list of things I hate myself for.) There are two ladies at the gym that I love having around because they push me to be better and faster, and they are Janyce aka Black Widow and Heather aka Jersey (we need to come up with a different nickname for her). Both of these ladies are so strong and athletic and I hate them for it. Just kidding. I don’t hate them. I’m just jealous because they’re 10 years younger than me, gorgeous, and so fit. Regardless of their age and beauty, they make me push myself that much harder and this “old” lady thanks them for it. I have been feeling much stronger and nimble lately and I’m seeing the results in the mirror. Now, if only my damn potbelly would go away…

I am excited about the goals I have set and about my re-commitment to myself. Depression is a bitch, and it feels so good to feel happy again. Many thanks to everyone who has helped me on my journey and continues to help me become a better, healthier person. I am in the process of learning to love myself for who I am and accepting my body as it is. (Holy personal blog, Batman!)

Notable WODs over the past few weeks:
 
Wed, 1 Feb 2012
88 sit-ups in 2 min
 
Mon, 6 Feb 2012
10 Rounds for Time:
10 Toes-to-bar
10 Push-ups
20 Abs
Time: 16:20 RX

 
Fri, 10 Feb 2012
“Angie”
100 Pull-ups
100 Push-ups
100 Sit-ups
100 Squats
Time: 19:54 RX

 
Mon, 13 Feb 2012
80 Squats
10 Handstand push-ups (HSPU)
60 Squats
20 HSPU
40 Squats
30 HSPU
20 Squats
Time: 14:44 RX

 
Thur, 16 Feb 2012
30 HSPU
40 Pull-ups
50 Kettlebells
60 Sit-ups
70 Burpees
Time: 21:04 RX

New Blog, Last Supper of In-N-Out Burger, & Paleo: Take 3 (or 4?)

Well, well, well… so much to write about, so much to catch up on, but first – HOLY SUGAR RUSH!!! I haven’t had very much sugar or dairy in the past month so the chocolate milkshake I had tonight made me bizonkers!!! I felt like the Great Cornholio with all of the sugar rushing through me. Ba-rah-kah-kah-kah!!! I may have to take some ibuprofen PM tonight in order to fall asleep.

If you have been keeping up with my blog, you may have noticed that I moved to another blogging site. I wasn’t all that impressed with Blogspot and I just like WordPress better. As one of my friends said, it feels more polished. And as another friend said, WordPress is for more fancypants stuff. Well, that’s what I was missing, my fancypants. So, I hope you like my fancypants. I was quite pleased that I was able to import all of my posts from my other blog to this one. Technology is so neat. I also added more info under the CrossFit menu, and overall made it look better and more organized.

Tomorrow marks the beginning of another Paleo challenge. Anis, Madeline, and I have decided to give it another shot and this time through a points system. You can find more info on the point system if you click on the Paleo Challenge tab under the Paleo Diet menu. Basically, you start off every week with 100 points and you subtract 5 points for every cheat that you do. I’m hoping to stay above 40 and work my way up every week, but we’ll see! I have a wedding in Seattle coming up this weekend and then Disneyland the following weekend, so I’m not sure how these first two weeks are gonna go. Ruh-roh. I’m going to have to be super strict the first few days of each week so I can have some room to cheat while on my little trips. I am pretty excited to get back on track with food as I’ve been feeling pretty heavy and bloated over the past couple of weeks. I am determined to do better this time. Having a wager with Anis and Madeline is helping with the motivation, too! So, for my Last Supper, Mr. Ninja and I went to In-N-Out Burger and I had a delicious burger with a side of fries and a chocolate milkshake… “Here, if you have a milkshake, and I have a milkshake, and I have a straw. There it is, that’s a straw, you see? You watching? And my straw reaches acroooooooss the room, and starts to drink your milkshake… I… drink… your… milkshake.” Oops, sorry about that. I think I channeled Daniel Day-Lewis there for a moment. (Love that movie, btw.) Sugar!

More exciting news – I am SO pleased to report that I am running again!!! WOOT. I ran twice this past week – the first day I ran 300m and the second day I ran a total of 1000m. AND, my foot pain is nearly gone! Can you believe it?! It feels so great to not have any foot pain anymore. Well, I can feel a little lingering, but it’s mostly gone. Oh, man, it feels so dang good to be running again. Even though I’m not running very fast it feels good. However, I’m still not quite ready to jump yet. I think I should be able to do it, but mentally I’m not ready. I’m still afraid and if I’m mentally not ready I don’t want to do it. Otherwise, I’ll most likely hurt myself again.

Well, I am actually getting a little tired now and should probably take advantage of it now that the sugar is finally wearing off. Here’s to a new start with the Paleo Challenge and to running again! WOOOOOOOT!

WOD:
Rest day

Grub for the day:
The Last Supper: In-N-Out Burger!

Day 19 = Real Hunter-Gatherer Watching, Homework Swamped, Cheese Craving Ninja

 Welcome to the gun show. I love my CrossFit family!

“Everyday I’m shufflin’!” Holy busy past few days, hence the lack of posts. I am in the process of finishing up Summer Session at UCSB which is only 6 weeks long. This shortened session means information overload in a very short period of time. However, I do enjoy going to class everyday because it helps to hear the info consecutive days in a row. I am actually quite pleased with my instructors and TAs this session. I was sort of nervous doing the summer session as my past few instructors bombarded us with tons of reading and writing material and assignments that I was losing my mind. Seriously, Spring quarter was a disaster. Grade-wise I was totally fine, mentally, not so much. I don’t think planning a wedding helped with the situation either. Anywho, both of my instructors this session are very organized and have made this shortened session a fun experience.

This past Tuesday I watched a documentary for my anthropology class called The Hunters, which followed the Jul’Hoansi tribe back in the 50s. I was quite excited to see this documentary considering I am “attempting” to follow this hunter-gatherer type of diet. The film was interesting in that these tribes put so much effort into finding their food and at times don’t drink water for up to four days. In contrast to us being able to walk over to our fridge or go to the store to pick up something to eat. Kinda makes me feel selfish, lazy, and unappreciative, especially with all of the food that we waste. We’re working on that. The part of the documentary that I had a difficult time with was watching them hunt, kill, and carve one of my favorite animals, the giraffe. This is the dilemma that I have with being a meat eater. I know animals need to be killed in order for us to eat meat, it’s just difficult for me to deal with. I wish animals didn’t have to die for our survival. I’ve tried being a vegetarian, but my body needs the meat. Being a veggie works for some, but not for others, which leads me to discuss the Paleo diet.

It is obvious from my previous posts that I am having a difficult time with this diet. I don’t like the whole “eat as much meat and fats as you want” aspect of it. That doesn’t work for me or my body. I’ve been thinking about this diet a lot lately while I’ve been eating various foods that I “should” and “should not” be eating. Yes, I am feeling better, but at the same time I am not. Let’s just say that my plumbing isn’t working as well as it was before the diet. I attribute that to all of the meat I am eating. Yes, I am eating enough veggies. A girl can only eat so much! I am noticing and realizing that I can’t eat as much bread or cheese as I used to, I need to learn moderation. Moderation is something I always preach and am still learning to implement in certain aspects of my life (especially with food). I am going to continue with the diet, but not be so hard on myself if I eat something that isn’t Paleo-friendly. Like cheese. I want some mother effin’ cheese!!! One thing I am proud of myself for following is not drinking soda. I had a couple over the weekend, but other than that I have pretty much stayed away from it. Although I miss it a lot, I feel much better. I am going to try to only have it with booze. I need to have it with my vodka and rum!

I am going back to gym tonight after taking three days off and I’m excited! I miss being able to do full workouts. I’m hoping that I will be able to in about a month. I also miss playing on my softball team and am hoping that I’ll be able to play next season, which I believe starts at the end of the month. I met with a couple of friends the other day who are physical therapists (and a cute married couple, too) and they said that I’m on the right track with my healing. I was very pleased to hear that. It’s so interesting to see the differences in your own body. They had me balancing on one leg, jumping off one foot to another, and other exercises to assess where I’m at with healing. Funny enough, even though it’s my right Achilles that I injured, my right leg and foot are a bit stronger than my left. This is because my right side was dominant when I did gymnastics. So, I still need to work on strengthening and evening out my muscles on each side, but in different places.

Wow, this is a long blog. I guess that’s what happens when you don’t write everyday. I’m looking forward to the long weekend. Even though I have tons of homework, studying, and projects to do I look forward to not having to wake up at 6am.

Have a fun and safe weekend everyone!
xo

WOD:
Today’s workout is “Annie” named after my hero, Annie. Unfortunately, I can’t do it because it involves lots of double-unders and I’m not allowed to jump yet. I’ll have to figure out another workout to do. Hmmm…

I. Warmup: Mobility – 3x Normal
II. Skills: Double-unders
III. “Annie”
50-40-30-20-10
Double-unders
Sit-ups
IV. Cooldown- Rope climb and sand bag carry tec.

Grub for the day:
Breakfast: didn’t have time to eat (sad face)
Snack: beef jerky, cashews
Lunch: taco salad w/avocado, minus all the good stuff (cheese, chips, sour cream), delicious cantaloupe!
Dinner: Fresco – chicken wrap w/spinach, tomato, sprouts, avocado, herb cream cheese, side Caesar salad
Dessert: macaroon

Cravings:
Cheese, crackers, chocolate

Day 7 = Productive Ninja

What started out to be a crappy day yesterday ended up being just what I needed – time with my little family of Mr. Ninja and Molliekins, then date night. As I mentioned yesterday, we swayed from the diet, but it is okay. This diet is a huge adjustment and I shouldn’t expect myself to be able to stick to it perfectly. It’s okay to diverge every once in a while. I am feeling a little better today, and have been quite productive. Lots of homework, studying, and laundry got done today. Yay! Sadly, I still have a lot more studying and homework to do. Anyway…

In addition to figuring out how we want to change our diet, Mr. Ninja and I have decided that we will have a once a month McDonald’s breakfast day. And that day was today. I know it’s completely the opposite of eating healthy, but we enjoy food, and we can’t deny ourselves of our favorite foods. That’s not enjoying life. The key is doing it in moderation, which is difficult for me when it comes to food. Of course my body is saying, “what is going on here?!” But mentally, I feel better. Like I said yesterday, it’s a psychological thing with me and food. I really want to change my eating habits, but I have to and need to be patient with myself.

I’m trying and hoping to be more positive with Paleo and with this blog. I don’t want this become a bitch fest. Life has just been a bit difficult lately and I’m working through it. I am so grateful to have Mr. Ninja in my life. He is neat (and pretty handsome, too).

WOD:
Rest day!

Grub for the day:
Breakfast: McDonald’s – sausage and egg McMuffin, hashbrowns; Peet’s coffee
Lunch: Something’s Fishy – Santa Barbara Roll: salmon, shrimp, avocado, and something else; hibachi shrimp meal w/steamed rice, grilled veggies
Snack: turkey jerky
Dinner: tuna mixed with avocado and a touch of mayo on top of butter lettuce (my fave lettuce!), drizzled w/olive oil & balsamic vinaigrette

Cravings:
Soda, cheese and crackers, chocolate